Happy Birthday To Me!!

October 22 is my birthday.  I turned 24 this year, and even though that sounds so young to some people, I have more responsibility than most 30 year olds.  It was the first time I had spent my birthday with my dad in 20 years.  It was really nice and I had an amazing day with my family. 

So last week was fall break for my 6 year old.  That meant that both kids were home driving me absolutely crazy.  I didn't get a single thing done around the house all week, and I felt horrible because that left a ton of housework that needed to be done this weekend.  My poor step-mom got stuck doing most of it while I kept the girls out of the house so she could get things done.  She didn't complain at all, but I could tell that she was fustrated with me.  It brought back a lot of emotions from before when I felt so guilty for not doing certain things and I would get extremely depressed.  So I had this amazing birthday on Saturday and then spent Sunday feeling like the same old depressed person I used to me.  But I'm supposed to be changing.  So that is what I am trying to do.  I have been trying a lot harder to be better at keeping up with housework and things.  So far this week I am doing pretty good.

One of my birthday presents was a gym membership to the local YMCA.  I was very excited about this because I just couldn't afford it on my own.  I have gone every day this week and I am actually really enjoying it.  They have a kids place for the girls to go while I spend however long I can getting my body back into shape.  I feel so much better after a nice long workout in ways that I had forgotten.  How is it that getting so tired while you work out can give you more energy and make you so much happier?  I feel so good now, but I have a long way before I am looking just as good as I feel.

So all in all I have had some struggles, but I am trying to change and become the person that I want to be.  I also got my ears pierced for the first time ever!  It only took me 24 years!!!